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[daozhangs]

WELCOME TO YOUR PRIVATE CHANNEL, XIAO.XINGCHEN. FOR SECURE COMMUNICATION, USE 018.07.154.55 *** XIAO.XINGCHEN has joined 018.07.154.55 <XIAO.XINGCHEN> You have reached Xiao Xingchen. <XIAO.XINGCHEN> I am often away from my laptop, but I will do my best to answer as soon as I'm able.

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<SanduShengshou>

[legbreakings]

Master Kenobi advised me to get in touch with you.

[ Curt and to the point, and explaining nothing. Jiang Cheng at his finest. ]

[daozhangs]

Of course he did.

I am yet well enough, you have my word.

[legbreakings]

What happened?

You say yet. So you are feeling the hunger.

[daozhangs]

It was simpler to discredit my insight than admit that he didn't like what it was that I had to say. My hunger was the lowest-hanging fruit by which to do so.

I am. I told you I was when the month began. It's much stronger now, but not enough so that I cannot manage it on my own.

I told you that I would allow you to help when I needed it, and I plan to do so. Please trust in that, if you're able.

[legbreakings]

[ His answer is a while in coming. So there had indeed been conflict between them. He finds himself somewhat curious what they had argued about but there are more important points to focus on right now. ]

Are you sure you will be able to tell when you need to lock yourself away?

I lost my ability to judge my own hunger before I killed.

[daozhangs]

( it's right there on the post for all to see, should jiang wanyin become curious enough to check.

as for what's being said, he's ready with an assurance that he is indeed sure, but that feels... like pride speaking, not rationality. and so he swallows that pride and says instead, )

I feel assured, but of course I can't truly be assured.

In the day, I am unarmed and ill-equipped to attempt to kill. I'll make a day trip into Bavan to stock up on all that I'll need in my confinement.

In a couple of days, I will reassess my state.

Does all of this sound reasonable?

( it does to xingchen, but confirmation from someone a bit less hungry wouldn't be remiss. )

[legbreakings]

It does. You have thought this through well.

Make sure to stay away from people when you aren't human.

It lured me in. I was in a haze hours before I killed. There was no thought other than the hunt. It was like drowning.

I suppose visiting in person won't make it easier on you. Not until you are ready to be confined.

[daozhangs]

You know that you're welcome to visit regardless of whether or not it makes things easier.

[legbreakings]

I appreciate it. But I won't make it harder on you. I will keep you company this way.

[daozhangs]

As long as I'm not interrupting anything. Things aren't so dire that I can't be left unattended if you're busy.

[legbreakings]

[ Well, he does worry about retribution against Gosalyn and Lotus Pier after the news Obi-Wan Kenobi shared in confidence but it's not busy as such, and he can't explain without telling the full story or worrying Xiao Xingchen further. ]

I'm not so busy I can't spend some time fighting with this ridiculous laptop contraption.

[daozhangs]

( quite honestly, xingchen would absolutely prefer to know something that potentially groundbreaking about their situation - but it can wait until jiang wanyin is ready to share it, especially because xingchen at current hasn't the foggiest clue it exists (....get it, fog, i'm hilarious). )

Fighting with it? If you've stopped using the voice-text feature, you've only yourself to blame.

[legbreakings]

It's just frustrating! These messages don't have the same effect as a real letter.

[ No hurried or messy brushstrokes when you're upset. No angry inkblots. No personality at all to your calligraphy. He usually appreciates the network for letting him communicate without going all the way to Bavan to meet people in person but it's just not the same as letters. ]

[daozhangs]

They truly don't. Were we able to write by hand, I'd prefer it.

( he has no doubt that jiang wanyin's fierce lettering would be thick enough to read by touch. )

[legbreakings]

[ His preference is noted, there might be harpy-delivered letters in his future. ]

That aside. If there is anything you need, contact me. Or if you start doubting your own judgment.

[daozhangs]

Of course.

And thank you. For your aid, and also for trusting my judgment despite the circumstances.

[legbreakings]

Of course.

Rest now. This won't be pleasant so don't make it harder on yourself.